And when the day comes that
I must spend the rest of eternity
in the green fields of forever
I hope I pack up and go in my sleep
For I’m afraid if I’m awake
I’ll put up a fight
Use each of my last breaths
to tell you I don’t want to go
Because to look at you while losing you
is a pain I just cannot bear
🖊Candice Leigh
on days such as today i am certain that my
uncertainty is where it all went wrong
what are the ways in which i can make failure sound graceful
make it something to be proud of
how many stanzas does it require to add rhythm to this offbeat day
my pen stands still
because no matter how i dot my i’s or cross my t’s
these tears still flow from my eyes
my daughter rubs my arm
i can tell she’s confused
tears followed by bursts of anger would confuse anyone
but that’s how fast i knew i needed to slow down
that’s how quick it was to fail my kids today
to have a way with words and still unsure of how to use them
she continues to rub my arm
she comforts me for losing my cool
when she’s older i’ll tell her the story of the imperfect being
who meant well but didn’t always know the way
who worked hard but didn’t always know the limits
who loved harder than can be described but also made mistakes
until then i’ll hug her tightly
or maybe i’ll rub her arm until she falls asleep
reassuring her that my arms are still her safe space
and once she’s down for her nap i’ll call the doctor to
discuss these meds that still aren’t working
and it wasn’t until i came up for air
that i realized i was drowning
chest compressions aren’t to revive me
but to remind me that i’m still alive
breathe easy now
And once you see that I belong to more than one direction
Will you still care to follow
Will you stroke me into the Mona Lisa
That I know is buried beneath these walls
Will I ever be good enough to be hung in your gallery
Holding on to each and every word
Hoping they don’t become the broken promises
I left behind on the nightstand that belonged to the one before you
He said he could handle my curves too
Until he couldn’t…
The way she loves me
Calms my fears, reminds me of
The sound of the rain
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