the pain I cannot bear.

And when the day comes that
I must spend the rest of eternity
in the green fields of forever
I hope I pack up and go in my sleep
For I’m afraid if I’m awake
I’ll put up a fight
Use each of my last breaths
to tell you I don’t want to go
Because to look at you while losing you
is a pain I just cannot bear

🖊Candice Leigh


on the days i feel i failed them (moms you aren’t alone)

on days such as today i am certain that my

uncertainty is where it all went wrong

what are the ways in which i can make failure sound graceful

make it something to be proud of

how many stanzas does it require to add rhythm to this offbeat day

my pen stands still

because no matter how i dot my i’s or cross my t’s

these tears still flow from my eyes

my daughter rubs my arm

i can tell she’s confused

tears followed by bursts of anger would confuse anyone

but that’s how fast i knew i needed to slow down

that’s how quick it was to fail my kids today

to have a way with words and still unsure of how to use them

she continues to rub my arm

she comforts me for losing my cool

when she’s older i’ll tell her the story of the imperfect being

who meant well but didn’t always know the way

who worked hard but didn’t always know the limits

who loved harder than can be described but also made mistakes

until then i’ll hug her tightly

or maybe i’ll rub her arm until she falls asleep

reassuring her that my arms are still her safe space

and once she’s down for her nap i’ll call the doctor to

discuss these meds that still aren’t working

Photo Of The Day 4.12.21

Photo by Dids on

And once you see that I belong to more than one direction

Will you still care to follow

Will you stroke me into the Mona Lisa

That I know is buried beneath these walls

Will I ever be good enough to be hung in your gallery

Holding on to each and every word

Hoping they don’t become the broken promises

I left behind on the nightstand that belonged to the one before you

He said he could handle my curves too

Until he couldn’t…